Peace is our profession
Aug. 16th, 2025 07:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Now I'm walking round the city just waiting to come to
Aug. 16th, 2025 04:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It isn't just the jack-of-all-trades quality: his career as an actor looks weirder with every fact I learn about it. I had known that he did a season with the Old Vic in the late '30's, but I had not understood it was 1937–38 which made him part of the legendary A Midsummer Night's Dream directed by Tyrone Guthrie with Ralph Richardson as Bottom and Vivien Leigh as Titania and Robert Helpmann as Oberon, of which I have seen photos and caricatures and considered burning a time machine ticket on. He played the wittiest partition of Snout the tinker, for which he got irresistible notices—bettered when he co-starred with Olivier in the same season's The King of Nowhere, which the future Sir Larry conceded he had walked off with. He did first-run late Shaw in the West End and at the Malvern Festival, where his own first play premiered. He did television so early for the BBC, his appearances couldn't be burninated because it was not yet technologically possible to record them. For a while as both director and performer, he was involved with a company that did sort of experimental masques. Like any character actor worth their chameleonism, he played older than his own age from the start, at least once diegetically, already like a meta-joke. Except that he happened to be on Broadway in 1940 where it was easy for him to come to the attention of Hollywood, it starts to feel confusing that he got into American films at all, although even less surprising that he fit so badly into the Lego-set style of the studio system. He did post-war, post-blacklist theater in the UK, too, such that I have to hope for the survival of his televised 1970 When We Dead Awaken with Wendy Hiller. It feels existentially incorrect that the two of them were never in the same Shaw at the same time. I refer often to the hell of a good video store next door, but for some people you want the extra-dimensional expansion to the time machine.
In the meantime, it seems I can't read any of the detective novels he published pseudonymously in the early '30's when he was living by writing rather than acting, not because he was after all successful in taking their titles with him, but because even though Mystery*File made the connection back in 2015, short of incredible luck in a used book store the never-reprinted pulp of Ian Alexander's The Disappearance of Archibald Forsyth (1933) looks impossible for me to get near without Canadian interlibrary loan. The possibility that Alex Knox was the creator of the first fictional Indigenous detective is fascinatingly random except that it fits with the interests of his much later, mostly historical adventure novels published under his own name. I am used to the phenomenon where actors not all that infrequently double as directors or screenwriters, but obscure crime authors is a new experience.
Events of note
Aug. 16th, 2025 09:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
In news that shocks no-one, especially not me, I didn't actually manage to watch the streaming Twelfth Night in the two week window. I had two windows in my calendar and I spent them on other things, woe is me.
( ice hockey )
Charles and I went to see the reissue of Princess Mononoke in the cinema - in the IMAX screen - yesterday evening. I haven't watched it in many years but it holds up, still very beautiful. Some scenes I'd never forgotten but other parts surprised me all over again.
From the film I went to a goodbye party for two of the cricketers for a couple of hours. I left the party for ice hockey practice, and was briefly tempted to message the partiers when I came out of the rink at 1am to see if they were still going but actually by the time I got home and showered I just wanted to sleep.
(I have been added to the casual Saturday afternoon cricket groupchat. I am still very bad at cricket, especially at bowling, and have no kit. I could turn up anyway I guess.)
Murderbot fic: Natal Day Gifting
Aug. 15th, 2025 11:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Title: Natal Day Gifting
Word Count: 1400 words
Characters: Gen, Murderbot & Gurathin, PresAux in general
Summary: Murderbot gets dragged along on a birthday present shopping expedition. It enjoys this surprisingly somewhat more than expected.
AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/69306156
( Notes and Prompt )
( Fic under the cut )
Forever Knight Ficlet
Aug. 15th, 2025 10:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Forever Knight
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Amanda Cohen, Natalie Lambert [Forever Knight]
Additional Tags: Triple Drabble, Slice of Life
Summary:
Shared dinner, and dropped intimations.
Oblique References
Natalie settled in the small eatery, and tried hard to relax. She had no idea why the captain had asked for an informal meeting. Nothing Captain Cohen — Amanda, as she'd been told — had said indicated what this was about.
"Family's visiting others, and I didn't want to cook for one," Amanda began once the food had come. "I thought taking advantage of my one night off, and yours, could let us get to know where we stand a little better."
Ahh, there it was. Internal police politics or fishing for dirt, Natalie thought.
"I appreciate the invitation, and this is good Italian," Natalie said neutrally.
"I like all the garlic," Amanda said, with a quick look at Natalie.
Oh. Oh no.
"A bit like Schanke in that, thought I try not to breathe it everywhere."
Natalie laughed, making herself relax back from the worry over Nick. "I keep giving him mints, cinnamon gum… he doesn't take the hint."
"Maybe he uses it to keep some people at a distance," Amanda told her blandly.
Was she on about Nick in the most oblique way possible? Nick had confided in her that Joe had known, or at least guessed enough to choose to work with Nick's restrictions.
"Still, he's a good detective, and works well with Knight, despite Knight's habits."
"Nick, his medical exemptions…" Natalie mused, trying to pin this down one way or another.
"Yes, those." Amanda met Natalie's eyes across the table. "An admirable detective who has managed to make those work for him.
"I'm glad he has a doctor like yourself, even if not a physician, to keep him from going too far."
"I try," and Natalie had to let it rest with that, enjoying their meal while she decided if Nick needed warned.
"I appreciate you doing it."
BSG'78 Ficlet
Aug. 15th, 2025 10:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Battlestar Galactica [1978]
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Athena [Battlestar Galactica], Cassiopeia [Battlestar Galactica]
Additional Tags: Double Drabble, Slice of Life
Summary:
Cassiopeia is there when Athena wakes.
Chosen Family
Cassiopeia was sitting by the berth when Athena came to, something that tried to spark worry and affection both in the injured woman's heart.
"I made Apollo and Starbuck go sleep. The commander is probably still working," Cassiopeia said very softly. "You remember? Sometimes people don't but you didn't immediately try to move."
"I saw my death coming right at me; hard to forget," Athena answered, realizing that they had to have used precious pain-blocking injections for her not to hurt more than a dull ache.
"You need to sleep, as much as you can, and let us take care of you. We brought you to quarters to clear medbay, and one of us will be with you always until we know how you are recovering," Cassiopeia told her.
Athena felt the ridiculousness of Starbuck's paramour being her keeper chase through her mind, and discarded that as lacking in kindness.
"I appreciate it, Cassie."
The other woman smiled a little for the diminutive epithet. "Well, family gets to use that," she said with the smile still in place. "And we are, so." Cassiopeia moved to help Athena sip water through a straw, as Athena was weighing that.
Yes, they were.
D&D Cartoon ficlet
Aug. 15th, 2025 10:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dungeons & Dragons [Cartoon]
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Hank the Ranger [Dungeons & Dragons Cartoon], Diana the Acrobat [Dungeons & Dragons Cartoon]
Additional Tags: Triple Drabble, Slice of Life
Summary:
Hank and Diana have a visit.
Catching Up
Hank's face lit up as he saw Diana carrying a single piece of luggage walking toward him. He reached his hands out to her, and she stepped into his space for a quick hug with her free arm going around him. Hank would have liked to hold her longer, but they should get going.
"How have you been?" Diana asked before he could, and he gave a small snort.
"Tired? Overworked? Underpaid? So, the same."
She laughed with him, walking beside him out to the parking lot. He didn't insult her by trying to take the bag, though she was probably less prickly on that than Sheila could be sometimes. He did open the door for her to stow it, and then her door for her to get in. Once he was behind the wheel and navigating the parking lot out, he spoke again.
"It is good to see you. I haven't managed a visit with anyone since Eric and I went to that one game together."
"I saw Bobby a month ago," Diana said, "but it is getting harder and harder to get away responsibility."
He covered her hand on the seat between them, squeezing a bit, before putting it back on the wheel.
"I wish we all lived closer. Or…" He cut himself off, holding his wishes in his heart.
"Or that we could have made a life there, together, given tha tit all changed us to the point our families here were strangers?"
As ever, Diana's observations cut through to the crux of it.
"Yes, all of that."
"Wishes don't work here," Diana said softly. "But, maybe someday, life will guide us all closer. Until then, we use what we learned to help others here."
Hank nodded with a soft sigh. That was all they could do.
[books, embodiment] Hypermobility Without Tears, Jeannie Di Bon
Aug. 15th, 2025 11:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Jeannie Di Bon is a "Movement Therapist" who "specialis[es] in Hypermobility, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and Chronic Pain." In the introduction, she talks about her own experiences in a way I find very sympathetic:
I've lost count of the number of times a doctor has told me it's all down to IBS and instructed me to eat more fibre and try Pilates or yoga to relax. Dismissive in its nature and kind of ironic now, as I trained to become a Pilates teacher in 2008.
And, you know, the actual core (yes I did that) of her Integrated Movement Method is sound: she's giving advice about fostering body awareness, of when and where you're tense and when you're not, working through a pretty standard sequence of breathing exercises and gentle movements. All the exercises in this book are the kind of thing that show up pretty early on in any full-body physiotherapy programme, that have loads of progressions available (particularly within the Pilates model), and they're absolutely fine and probably useful to folk who've not been able to access care covering this kind of topic.
If it were just the exercise programme, it would be ... fine. More or less. I think a bunch of the ways she explains movements are unclear and counterintuitive, but hey, presumably they work for at least some people.
Unfortunately, there are all of the bits in between.
Chapter 4 is where they went from "okay, you're simplifying to the point of lies-to-children but you are also explaining why" to "... either you're deliberately misrepresenting things for personal gain or you're wildly incompetent", and I'm still not sure which of those it actually is. (I am trying not to think too hard about the possibility that the answer is "both".)
( Read more... )
tl;dr there is nothing you will get from the Integral Movement Method that you won't get from competently-taught or -explained Pilates except scaremongering and misdirection... and unlike IMM, you can get decent Pilates resources for free. Don't bother with this one.
Giving my brain a brush
Aug. 15th, 2025 10:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Despite the misery of getting there, the conference was worth attending. Thanks to D's help I got the bus I needed, I wandered in the direction I thought I was supposed to go from the bus stop and immediately was spotted by someone calling my name; it was one of two event organizers who'd recognize me. That felt very lucky.
My keynote speech was the second of three, which meant I didn't have to deal with all the technical failures of the first one and I wasn't the last thing in the day so I could decide after little sleep and long days in hot rooms and trains that I could leave early. My travel home was much smoother (if sweatier) and being home at dinnertime instead of bedtime did wonders for me.
The conference only had a couple dozen in-person attendees but apparently seven hundred online. I forgot the whole introductory section I had worked so hard on, but it went fine without it. There was still good discussion in the room during the Q&A bit, people are saying nice things on LinkedIn, and I was able to make friends with the first keynote speaker over lunch and she's a very useful work contact for me.
Yesterday at work was rough. I slept through my alarm -- something I never do -- and when I turned on my laptop an hour late I already had missed a call from my manager who'd had to route around me not being available when his manager tagged me to do something. So that was stressful but I was able to complete the task in a reasonably timely fashion, and while it is not my best work I think it ended up being one of those things that we didn't end up needing anyway. It was a slow day at work otherwise.
Unusually for a Thursday, there was no Doof so D and I decided to go to a queer social that we usually miss because it's every Thursday. He'd also invited a person new to the local discord and it was great to meet them too. We stayed out late (for us: he had to do his last-minute before-midnight duolingo lesson while we were waiting at the bus stop to go home!) and had a great time.
Today, the editing process my report has to go through was finished unexpectedly early, so I had to decide whether to accept or reject thousands of track changes. The editing was a weird process last time which we tried to streamline this time because we're up against a tight deadline. I tried to write to the style guide (now that I've laid eyes on it! I didn't know there was one before), but the style guide sucks and the editor I have to work with isn't good at using it. He also thinks all his own opinions and foibles are "just general grammar" and twice lately he mentioned "not using the passive voice" as if that was a) desirable or b) well understood by people who claim to care about it. I cannot cope with someone who doesn't know the difference between what's "correct" by even the widest interpretation of that word, what's a matter of register, and what's stylistics.
After work I had two startling and unsettling things happen in the space of about 15 minutes, the first of which I won't talk about here but the second of which is that I'd forgotten about my mom mentioning that some family friends were traveling to England on vacation and "are going to be somewhere near you." Of course I asked where and of course she didn't remember. She wanted to know if she should tell T to call me when they got here, "...if their phones even work there..." FFS. She should know their phones won't work here because hers and my dad's phones never work when they are here but of course she hadn't thought about it that deeply. She just is a boomer so would call. Well we're millennials so we can email!
I forgot immediately about this of course, in the sea of parental nonsense. T is an anglophile and a history teacher so tends to come to London and Canterbury and whatnot with school trips of teenagers. At least one other time, before covid, we vaguely arranged to meet up when she was here on a vacation but she was in London then and I think it was around Christmas so the trains were all fucked up and I was too poor to go to London on short notice anyway.
My mom might think they're "close to me" when they're in Ireland or something so I wasn't worried about it. But it turns out they are close to me! D and I now have plans to go see them on Sunday!
This does bring up the awkward point of how, if at all, I'll hide my life from them. My parents exhibit untold levels of oblivousness but surely other people might think my beard and voice and everything are surprising enough to be remarked upon when they get home!
I made the plan like normal but am not sure how to approach it now.
Tortoise + stars
Aug. 15th, 2025 11:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
(It reminded me a bit of a large toad L and I saw a short while ago, that was also very cute.)
Yesterday friends and I drove outside of the city for a bit to watch the Perseids. I saw the largest shooting star I've ever seen in my life, very cool. And some normal and smaller ones, too. As soon as the moon got higher it was a lot harder to see anything, I'd underestimated just how much of a difference that would make.
A silver lining, I guess, of having a chronic skin condition is that at least I get extra warning signs from my body when my stress levels increase, sometimes that takes me a while to notice. I had a very low energy week, and the temperatures certainly didn't help. The bank holiday today was very welcome; apart from visiting my parents I mostly spent it lying in bed reading. I have more classes this weekend and then the weekend after that, so I need every extra day to relax that I can get.
Infrastructure.
Aug. 15th, 2025 04:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Last night, I realized I was getting ready to wash the dishes on reflex, and ended up feeling a little lost for a few minutes. Now they're all cleaned and the water I'd saved and didn't drink is still going to get drunk, but it's gone into the kettle so I don't have to draw more out of the taps - something that seems appropriate right now. Not getting "new" water, but using water I'd already gathered. Because in part, I know right now I can get more if I need it. But I've already gotten this, so I don't need to protect it. Just use it.
The Undertaken
Aug. 15th, 2025 05:05 pm![[syndicated profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/feed.png)
Actually being old I can't speak to. But Getting old is really interesting. I mean, if you're me. If you aren't me, maybe the hellscape of degradation that our culture constantly heaps on you for having the temerity to not die can find purchase. There's a lot of people trying to make me ashamed of various things and then trying to sell me chemicals to manage them, and while I appreciate the hustle I'm simply too far along whatever kind of spectrum it is to yield to this kind of manipulation. It isn't possible to not age; I never thought I would remain the same. That's what would be weird, in fact: to endure raw time and the obvious, profound insincerities of existence and be recognizable at the end. It's psycho shit; I don't honor it.
Interviewed in The Atlantic about “AI” Slop
Aug. 15th, 2025 05:40 pm![[syndicated profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/feed.png)
Earlier this month I wrote about someone using an AI-generated quote and attributing it to me (along with an AI-generated picture of me which looked nothing like me), and I was more than a little annoyed by it. Now my experience and the experience of others who have had this happen, is the subject of an article in The Atlantic, titled “Don’t Believe What AI Told You I Said,” by Yair Rosenberg. I can attest that, indeed, it me being directly quoted in the piece, so you have that much assurance. And yes, this is a problem that will not go away, and is indeed likely to grow over time. Be vigilant about who and what you quote, folks.
— JS
Trapped, by Michael Northrop
Aug. 15th, 2025 09:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)

Seven teenagers get trapped in their high school during a blizzard when they miss the bus that evacuated the rest of the school.
This was easily the worst book I've read all year, and I've read some doozies. I read it because I'd bought a copy for the shop for the niche of "children's/younger YA survival books for kids who've already read all of Gary Paulson and "I Survived."" I am going to return it to the publisher (Scholastic, which should be ashamed of itself) forthwith, because it is AWFUL.
Why is this book so bad?
1. It's incredibly misogynist. The narrator, Scotty Weems, is constantly thinking of girls in a gross, slimy, objectifying way.
The two girl characters, who get trapped in the high school along with five boys, never do anything useful. One's entire personality is "hot" and every time she's mentioned, it's with a gross leering description of her body. The other girl's entire personality is "hot girl's friend."
2. The characters have exactly one characteristic each, and even that one often gets forgotten, to the extent that I kept mixing up "normal boy" with "mechanically inclined boy." The others are "dangerous boy" and "weird boy." The latter gets downgraded to "not actually weird, just funny" (as in makes one supposedly humorous comment once.) We get no insight into them, their backstories, their home lives, etc, because none of them ever really talk to each other about anything interesting despite being trapped together for a week!
3. SO MANY gross descriptions of pimples, peeing, and pooping.
4. The book is boring. No one does anything interesting on-page until the second to last chapter, when it FINALLY occurs to Scotty to make snowshoes. Most of the book is Scotty's inner monologue about pimples, pooping, peeing, and hot girls. The kids barely interact!
5. The kids keep saying that help won't come because no one even knows they're missing, but that makes no sense. Every single one of them was supposed to get picked up. It's never explained why SEVEN DIFFERENT FAMILIES wouldn't notice that their kids never came home.
6. The incredibly contrived scene where Best Friend Girl comes staggering in screaming and disheveled, repeating, "Les, Les!" This is the name of Dangerous Boy. One of Indistinguishable Boys assumes Les sexually assaulted her and runs out and attacks Les. Best Friend Girl recovers enough to explain that she went to a room and it was dark and cold and she got lost, and she was trying to say there was LESS light and heat there. Because that's what you'd naturally gasp out when freaking out, instead of, say, "Dark! Cold!"
I feel like the existence of this scene in a PUBLISHED BOOK lowered the collective intelligence of the universe by at least half a point.
7. No interesting use is made of the school setting. The kids open their own lockers to get extra clothes and snacks, find pudding and canned peaches in the cafeteria, and spend the rest of the time silently huddled in classrooms, occasionally checking their useless cellphones that don't have any signal. Toward the end, they start a fire, and then, OFF-PAGE, construct a snowmobile (!).
Things they don't do: Break into other kids' lockers in the hope of finding useful stuff. Attempt to cook the cafeteria food. Search the library for survival tips. Get mats from the gym so they're not sleeping on freezing floors. Search classrooms and the teacher's lounge for useful stuff. Have a pick-up ball game to keep warm. Find ways of entertaining themselves without cell phones. HAVE GETTING TO KNOW YOU CONVERSATIONS - WHAT IS THE POINT OF DOING THE BREAKFAST CLUB WITHOUT THIS?
Spoilers! ( Read more... )
Truly terrible.
ETA: I just discovered that it went out of print soon after I purchased it (GOOD) and so is not returnable (DAMMIT).
Be my hand on the oar to row to eternity
Aug. 15th, 2025 12:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
As the currently compiling issue is still looking for more fiction: story-writing people of my acquaintance, please send it in! The website remains temporary, the 'zine remains its black-and-white, saddle-stapled, nearly forty-year-old self. There's nothing like it out there in any of the fields.
I am off to the doctor's, which is a lot less the kind of journey I enjoy making.
I'm not the world's most passionate guy - Community story, genderqueer Pierce Hawthorne
Aug. 15th, 2025 12:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Community (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Pierce Hawthorne & The Study Group, Pierce Hawthorne & Craig Pelton
Characters: Pierce Hawthorne, Craig Pelton, Britta Perry, Shirley Bennett
Additional Tags: Genderqueer Character, Canon-Compliant Pierce Hawthorne, Genderqueer Pierce Hawthorne
Summary:
Pierce experiments with his gender.
*I read a Tumblr post (linked as inspiration) about trans headcanons that cited a character named Pierce. I don't know who they were talking about, but in my heart, they were talking about this asshole.
Possible alternate tag: Queer and Woke are Not Synonyms